I wonder…

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I haven’t baked this out.  I just saw this picture and found myself laughing at it, agreeing with it on some level, then catching myself, realizing the struggles of the last couple of months, crying for the first time, then crying so many different times at the drop of a hat that now I frequently wonder if I’m broken.  That was my default mindset for so long, it’s very hard to say “it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to have feelings.”

Anyways, I wonder how much I’m a product of the culture of the Army vs. how much the Army appealed to me because of its culture?  Was I totally this way before I joined, and maybe that was part of the appeal, hanging out with some emotionally stunted people like myself, or if it just pushed me further down the path I was already on?

Sucks that I can’t just see something like this and laugh just to laugh anymore.

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2 Responses to “I wonder…”

  1. Hah, that last line is a little melodramatic. Of course some day I’ll be on the other side of this and laugh just to laugh at something stupid. 🙂

  2. […] to friends lately, having them help me with my homework assignment.  A couple weeks ago I wrote this post and then never really thought about it again.  One of the friends I was talking to is a military […]

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