New Trigger

Posted in Uncategorized on March 30, 2015 by me

I was driving to work today.  I woke up feeling fairly craptastic and it was an effort to drag myself out of bed and get ready for work.  I’m fairly sure I was listening to music fairly loud, trying to make up for lost time.  To my left, and slightly behind me there was a truck with an empty 40 cubic yard rollaway dumpster on the back.  I wasn’t aware it was there and it hit a major bump and the empty dumpster just rose off the truck bed and slammed back down pretty loud.  Scared the snot out of me.  In the past, a lot of traffic triggers I’ve been able to see and reason through in my head.  This took longer.  And I think the fact that I was so zoned out and didn’t see it, and it was SO loud did a number on me  It sounded like an IED went off. Thinking about it now, it’s still screwing with me a little.

Follow up:  I’ve been thinking about this.  It didn’t sound like an IED.  It was just so loud, so unexpected and so shocking to me that it screwed me up.  Normally I’m fairly alert and have some level of situational awareness.  So when something like this happens…

I like these lyrics

Posted in Uncategorized on March 26, 2015 by me

Breathe (2 AM)

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

I know I’ve talked about this before…

Posted in Uncategorized on March 26, 2015 by me

…  but it’s still such a crazy feeling every time I hear a song and mention how cool/awful/whatever it is to someone in earshot and they say “Haven’t you ever heard that before?”  “No.  It’s not new?”  “Dude.  No.  That came out years ago.”  “When?”  “Hmmmm,  I dunno.  2005?  6 Maybe?”  “Oooh.  I was deployed”.  Just who gaps in my understanding of American culture.

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Posted in Uncategorized on March 25, 2015 by me

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Night Moves

Posted in Uncategorized on March 25, 2015 by me

In basic training we went for months without music.  Which, next to a lack of sleep, was probably the hardest part of it for me.  When graduation rolled around I was one of only four people who didn’t have friends or family there, so I couldn’t leave the base.  The four of us had to stay in the barracks while everyone else got to go into town with their families.  They got to eat real dinner in a restaurant for the first time in almost three months, stay in a hotel, the works.

The Drill Sergeants took pity on us.  We didn’t get any of that stuff but we did get to walk over the PX for a little bit.  I bought a CD player and a couple discs for that night and for the plane ride to A.I.T. the next day.

One of the CDs I bought was Bob Seger’s Greatest Hits.  Night Moves has always been able to have an impact on me.  When I’m rushing around town I can flip right through it.  It’s not something I HAVE to listen to.  But when I’m home playing music on the stereo and it comes on…

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Posted in Uncategorized on March 22, 2015 by me

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Posted in Uncategorized on March 20, 2015 by me

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