Two nuggets to think about when I’ve got time:
“Being in the midst of therapy and being hyper sensitive to my actions and feelings is probably making this a teensy more surreal.”
“Yes. That’s what people who are in their head do: Try to control everything.”
It’s funny how we’ll grasp at straws. We want to hope. Religion, horoscopes, old wives tales for health. Rabbits’ feet, breaking the wishbone, lucky stars.
Someone told me something today. It wasn’t quite what I wanted to hear, actually probably not anywhere near what I wanted to hear, but “close enough”. So I’m going to believe a little bit longer, because believing makes things easier.
I got two fortunes tonight. Normally I eat the fortune cookies because I like the taste but ignore the little slips of paper. Tonight I had to wait for a dish to be made so I ate the cookies before dinner and read the fortunes while waiting.
“You will be showered with good luck” and “You will soon receive pleasant news of a personal nature”. Just what I needed to hear right now. Honestly, no sarcasm. So yeah, I’m going to stick them to the fridge or tape them to the mirror and look at them everyday and believe in them because I want to. And hopefully they’ll come true.
I don’t think a single work day in my adult life has gone by where I didn’t dream of doing the “la-la-la-la” thingPosted in Uncategorized on April 18, 2014 by me